i am surrounded by noise from all sides - funeral downstairs, funeral next block, resident committee party, tv blaring. amidst all this cacophony i have carved out a quiet bubble of my own and am consciously thinking; about holidays past, pre-work feelings, relationships and religion all jumbled together. so many things have changed, or at least seemed to - but am i really different now and living how i really want to? i feel free, unfettered and healthily giggly - but at the same time very disillusioned towards love. and how long will this carefree living last? till the next crush or boyfriend comes along and i turn back into a gross codependent girlfriend again? ugh.

on a happier note, it has been a most relaxing weekend! although i am very sorry for canceling friday dinner plans, and not joining shimin meizi for shopping on saturday, and skipping church with christin on sunday and therefore also skipping gym with meizi. sorry guys :( but it has been too good just nua-ing at home with the family, teaching tuition, and watching HIMYM! ((((: now i shall go and draw up one huge list of all the things i NEED TO GET DONE, and spend the next week actually doing them instead of just partying away.