my head is pounding and i feel permanently nauseous, side-effects of too much midnight sake. two movies this week: taking pentham 123 and the much-anticipated transformers 2. the first was so-so, the second pretty good; but none amazed me and were too action-packed for my enjoyment. i want something slow brooding thoughtful and beautiful, something that will calm me down between my shifting moods.

right now i am treading a tightrope between emotions, they all feel fleeting and transient - nothing solid. these days i am neither extremely permanently happy, nor sad or depressed; just always hovering at boundaries and edges in between, here nor there. it is a combination of too much time on some days, too little on others! need to find things to DO soon. like GETTING A JOB, or (more frivolously) watching a new drama.

from man walks into a room:
"you fall in love, it's intoxicating, and for a little while you feel like you've actually become one with the other person. you think you'll never be lonely again. only it doesn't last and soon you realize you can only get so close, and you end up brutally disappointed, more alone than ever, because the illusion - the hope you'd held on to all those years - has been shattered.

but the incredible thing about people is that we forget."